It’s a new year. 2023 was weird in a sense that I found myself in mostly last minute flights to places. It’s annoying because I swore I would only book cheap flights but whenever my mental health needed a boost.. within 48 hours, I find myself in a new country, work laptop in tow just so I can work from anywhere else but home.
Another plot twist would be the fact that I’m now exclusively dating someone. This person isn’t even anyone new in my life lol. We met a few years ago when we were both newly single (oh god, I can’t believe I’ve been single for 5 whole years!) and it eventually fizzled out (I ghosted him HAHA).
Cut to 2023 when I found myself in his current city (this dude moves around a lot 🥴), so I hit him up and it.. kind of just snowballed from there. So I guess pros: more reasons to travel. Con: long distance situationship with a guy who doesn’t even have a permanent address (heck, he’s moving to Europe soon). To his point though, he did want to make it an official relationship but I’m not fond of the distance and crying at the airport whenever he drops me off at the airport immigration. So there’s that.
I think the biggest development I’ve had from 2023 was the growth of sad girl scents through staying true. I admit that 2021-2022 had me kind of just going with the trend of what’s successful and unfortunately, I kind of lost sight of why I started the brand. I was getting so burnt out from everything and in 2023, I kinda slowed down production to truly focus more on the things that I want to release. It’s been crazy but 2023 has been our best year yet! (I do wish more people purchase the cardigans even if they were expensive 😂).
I’m also planning on quitting this job. I realize now that a lot of my anxiety from 2023 came from waking up and working this job. At one point of 2023, I opted to work from Japan and I literally cried every single day just from how much I hated it. It’s crazy. I think this would have been a great firm to work in if I had been in the phase of my life where I was ambitious career-wise. The role I hold in this firm truly has been an enriching experience and given me so much insight that staying in my previous job would have not given me – even if I felt like I was stretched thin 40+++++ hours a week, doing so much stuff I can barely take breaks. It takes a toll. I get so anxious when I hear notifs at 1 AM because my colleagues barely sleep ??? I’m not that devoted to this career. Thank you very much.
Ever since I got laid off during the pandemic, I’ve come to the realization that I’ve had no job that dealt with life and death (I’m not in healthcare or education or any industry that has drastic effects on other people’s lives) that was worth ruining my mental wellbeing for. I’ve mostly worked in big firms where I’m probably just a number. Crying every single day is the last straw. Fingers crossed I find a new job before I go bankrupt. 💀
I’m manifesting for a softer and nicer 2024. I just want to be healthy and have enough wealth to live a comfortable life (and feed my 2 chonky cats good food).